Yukaimina

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Change part two by Yukaimina, literature

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Change part two

this static.. unsettling, irritating. uncomfortably humming outward.. it's a need that won't go away. i don't want this i don't need this i hate this. the once content feeling shatters into pieces this will change everything new ambitions, new directions, new goals.. all with more uncertainty.. people will fight, attempt to dissuade, to persuade me to go back.. it's too late now.. sacrifices must be made the loss will have meaning it will be worth it.

Change part one by Yukaimina, literature

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Change part one

He is first. Nothing else comes close to comparison. materials fade with time, people grow old and die. He remains. God is forever eternal. How can anything compare to Him? exactly, nothing earthly can. I gave Him my heart. ..it is in HIS hands and i need to work on this relationship first. ...i was such a fool. now you will suffer for it. I love you truly! only as a friend. you, who was always there for me, when i needed help. you are like a brother to me I am not the one for you. you deserve someone who will give you their best I've given you limited affection. this relationship is based on the possibility, the what if; i

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Poison by Yukaimina, literature

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Poison

Through the heart. Sinking into the soul. To me. this poison of icky hate and regret seeps into my lungs. running through the bloodstream, effects are crippling. Sour heart. Tainted soul. Infected me. this acidic sludge is a longtime killer, ravaging the body inside out. A drop in the beginning, gradually turning deadly. A scar that never healed really, manifesting into something much worse actually. Darkened heart. Bleak soul. Dead me.

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Bleak by Yukaimina, literature

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Bleak

There are no sounds. There is only complete silence. The end is not triumphant or glorious, it is simply empty. Nothing at all. writhing on the floor, curled into the fetal position, waiting for it to stop.. this lasts for awhile... the realization that no one is there is a wasted thought. THERE IS NO ONE frenzied emotions laid bare.. a mess on the floor.. A mess of fear, hatred, and anxiety ruining the carpet. tears fall like rain, staining my clothes. The abyss swallows me into oblivion.. my demise is all over the walls. it's a mess. sinking deeper into the depths below, uselessly struggling to keep afloat i

untitled by Yukaimina, literature

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Humming. Buzzing in this brain that is unrelenting and refusing to leave the scene. Ghosts are here and they want to break free out of the psyche and into reality. Their whispers float in these ears unclear, yet they reveal What's been known all along The former self is gone A new being is in place unknown to others, new in this space. Senses and outlook is refined parameters and goals are confined. Boundaries are where this can grow to gain knowledge that is unknown. Events have been set into motion no one knows where this will go. As far as anyone percieves, nothing is out of the ordinary.

Dream by Yukaimina, literature

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Dream

As i look into the distance, i see it. The place that's been etched in my mind all of this time. I feel the calm rays of light that penetrate my being. warmth I can touch the trees, deep rooted in the earth, and yet stretch to the sky. The leaves feel weightless beneath my feet. The wind soothes my troubled thoughts. As i reflect in this place, i feel at peace. Nothing's bothering me. I can finally just be who i am without being afraid of being caught. Then i wake up. It was just a dream.

Pang of Despair by Yukaimina, literature

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Pang of Despair

this pain is deep rooted and vast It's an ache that refuses to go away, even though i said we were friends, i can't help wanting more from you. it's always been there, ever since that day As i've said, i'll always love you. But it is with regret that i know it will always be unrequited I knew that you couldn't reciprocate feelings for me, it wouldn't be fair to either of us or right at all. This sorrow stemming from my being refuses to alleviate it won't leave me it's just become another part of my broken heart.

Letting you go by Yukaimina, literature

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Letting you go

I hate them so much.. can't believe that i actually had hope this time.. I was willing to give them a chance... wanting them to change... .........to be let down with great disappointment.. such a damn letdown... kinda serves me right...this isn't new it's just i thought that "destruction breeds creation" would hold true for her...apparently it didn't it was ruined before it had a chance to begin that's when it dawned on me that we are two totally different people. ~ This wound is festering...it's infected and the poison is spreading all you've done to me by your actions, to think you still affect me this much shows a lack

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Change part two by Yukaimina, literature

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Change part one by Yukaimina, literature

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Poison by Yukaimina, literature

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Poison

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Lost by Yukaimina, literature

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Lost

Lost: nip nip nip. piece by piece. Another fragment is lost again. to the depths to madness. get farther away from me. The puzzle that was once whole is now a shredded picture that is too ripped to fix again. To even try to put the pieces back together would just be a wasted effort. A way to waste time, i suppose. But I'd prefer to just fall apart. To lose myself bit by bit is better than being imperfectly whole. It's all a lie really. Underneath the cool facade, i'm truly a wreck. I'm not as collected as i seem. Deception is second nature to me. along with lying and manipulation. Eh, you think you know me? please, you don't know a damn

Dysfunctional by Yukaimina, literature

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Dysfunctional

Here we go... You're a failure! Get out of my sight! *sigh, grumble* love you too mom. Using the same words, yet again mother? pathetic.. It's really of no use anymore. I get it. really i do. I'm a failure. I ruin everything. I make your life harder..jeez..i get it..i'm a virus. One question though? why do you tolerate me then? love? because i'm your child? hmph. If i was in your position, i would've taken action..walking away. love ya! Dad's just a child really. A man who i consider a brother instead of my father. Disappointing, to say the least. Until he acts like a father, i'll give him that respect and treat him like one. un

Variations Of Self by Yukaimina, literature

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Variations Of Self

I. The original: Taylor Sweet, caring, and quiet. It was the way i used to be. I used to care about everyone and be sweet to all..and actually care about every little worksheet in school. I am the original. I was the dominant for 15 years. I experienced everything. But because of one person leaving me, it broke me. Nii-sama At the time, i was weak. I had no backbone, and no sense of self. So i dealt with it in my own way- not dealing with it. So i just let someone else take over. At the time, i thought it was simple. Now i realize i was horribly wrong. II. Yachiru-chan Hello!!!! I love you!!!! I'm sweet, lovable and very happy!!! Now

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A part of life by HeavenCalling, literature

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A part of life

Emotions are a part of my being. I feel joy and gladness. I experience happiness and delight, love and compassion. But I am also deeply moved by your pain, and I grieve with you that the sin in the world has caused so much suffering. Precious child, you can come to me with your feelings, whatever they are. I understand the tidal wave of emotions that engulf your spirit. I am aware of the ache in your soul. I recognize your hurting heart-for mine is bleeding too. I am full of tenderness and compassion for you. Emotions are a part of life. You do not need to deny them to try to smother them. Bring me your heartaches and anger, your fear and s

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Aug 20
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Favourite genre of music: alternative, rock, metal, indie..etc.
Favourite style of art: photography and writing

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Alex Grey

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too many to pick

Favourite TV Shows

Doctor Who, Supernatural, Vampire Diaries

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Tool, Isis, Porcupine Tree, Nine Inch Nails, Queens of the stone age, Radiohead, Arcade Fire..etc.

Favourite Writers

Augustine, Kierkegaard, etc.

Favourite Games

assassin's creed

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pencil, pen, and paper

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Reading, Writing, Art, Music, and fanfiction

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Yukaimina

Aug 15, 2012

Devious Journal Entry

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Wow it's been a long time since i've been here. During that time, i've changed. Essentially my summer was self discovery and summer school.

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Yukaimina

Apr 18, 2012

Devious Journal Entry

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Lord, i'm so thankful for what you have shown me in the past few days. I love that despite everything that comes my way, i know that you will be there always. :)

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Yukaimina

Mar 3, 2012

Devious Journal Entry

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There's so many changes going on in my life; new desires and wants. I never thought i would be so...eager to find a partner before. It's quite disconcerting to experience this. Regardless, i will ride this out!